yes so what if im an emotional wreck or whatever. haha, listen to this okay. i was just looking at what we said in the past online, when my tears just rolled down like this before i knew it. HA HA, EVRYBODY GIMME A BIG LAUGH. likw wtf. this is so wrong. yu said those stuff and didnt mean it ; i dont care bout this anymore. its now. now what are we ? STRANGERS ? sheesh, i dont even talk to yur FRIENDS anymore. evrything's affected now. my whole life is affected. all i want is to be able to talk to yu like in the past, is this too much im asking for. x( no, i dont think so. boy, i dont want to care bout love nomore. the least yu can give me is like uh friendship ? we cant even be basic friends now. i wna talk to yu, i seriusly do. becos yu know why ? i cant seem to tel anyone else my problems and let them listen like the way yu did. i just cant. yur the only one i can open up to. as a FRIEND. this is all i want now. take is as a plea, a beg. yu told me to stay, but now yur leaving me yurself. yes im an emotional wreck. but im a whole lot better now. becos yu toldme not to cry. yu told me to be fckng strong, rmbr. now what are yu doing. huh. look at yurself. making evryone stay away and not talking is NOT the solution, okay. yur like escaping from reality. and im not happy with the way things are right now. i just dont believe those stuff yu told me, when yu said yu love to hold on to hate. yes i dont even know if i TRUST yu now, but i stil want to talk to yu and o-pen up like i did. now im the anti social one. what i am on the outside isnt what i am on the inside. dont yu KNOW ? cant yu TELL ? NOTICE ? SEE ? let me tell yu this. i can even go down on my knees and beg yu to stop all these. call me desperate, this sint right. FRIENDS, arent friends when they break so easily away like this. this just isnt right. and im trying to fix it. its yu now. yur the only one left. holdon on to yur stupid dumb hate. i dont even know if i can trust yur ANGELS anymore. its like all a lie. i even have second thoughts about whether yu mean those stuff yu told me about. WE NEED TO TALK. this is all im asking for. i want the old yu back. becos this is driving me crazy, thats how retardication comes about. x(((